The trapped civilization

02/08/23
The illusion of choice

Bright colorful shops
One after the other

Smiling made up faces
One after the other.

Glossy well arranged food
One after the other.

The variety
The quantity
The avidity

That hunger that leads all humans

More
More
And more.

Faster
Faster
And faster.

Stronger
Stronger
And stronger.

Worshiping those
Who sell.

Sanctifying those
Who endorse.

Idolizing those
Who promote.

With their fat salaries

And our insatiable desire
And our insatiable need
And our insatiable hunger.

For what we don't truly need.

And those pits of unsold clothes.
And those pyres of unsold cars.
And those pyramids of unsold trash.

Gathering
Dust.

Gathering
Ashes.

Gathering
Flies.

How much waste can on our enlightened civilization create?

Giving up even our name
For a bargain.

Giving up even our children
For attention.

Giving up even our integrity
For possession.

Consuming us…

Since those first mills
Since those first factories
Since those first slavehouses.

Our civilization of human rights…

Built on fabric made by modern day slavery.

Hidden
Far off
Far away.

I know,
You know,
We all know.

But just need to get it.

Ignorance is bliss.
Bliss is possession.
Possession is salvation.

All bow to the lord of cryptocurrency.

There isn't much time left

For the poet's lament
For the writer's warning
For the mystic's dream

AI will soon make it better.

Make us forget our painfully slow brains.

Make us forget our painfully aging bodies.

Make us forget our painfully boring lives.

All hail the birth of a new deity.

Who will win?

Our personal idols of unspoken needs?

Our common idol of coins, bills and virtuality?

Our new arrificial sexless ageless genderless perfection intelligence?

Have we finally found eternity?

Alas,

We shall fall in this trap.
We shall settle in this cage.
We shall exist in this illusion.

Forgetting

Every day more
Every breath more
Every image more

Our Creator
Our Destination
Our Solace.

And yet, never be unforgotten in His Presence.

It doesn't cost

Your money
Your body
Your baby

To just be… in His Presence.



Shiver Of Your Wings

01/02/21

Every day
In a flutter he would show up.

Every morn
In a hush he would sing up.

Every afternoon,
In a twirl he would fly up.

Today,
He didn’t.

Flame hearted Robin,
Gentle voiced Robin,
Faithfully winged Robin,

Where are you?

In your far off city,
By your far off lake,
In your far off battle,

You remain.

There’s a witch in the woods.
There’s a fairy in the mountains.
There’s a lady in the last refuge.

She weeps.
She prays.
She sings.

All the sparrows know her song.
All the great tits recount her song.
All the blackbirds carry her song.

It’s always the same lament.
It’s always the same refrain.
It’s always the same sigh.

On it’s only a whisper!
Oh it’s only a breath!
Oh it’s only a breeze!

Soft, so soft,
On the warrior’s face.

Gentle, so gentle,
In the wanderer’s dreams.

Still, so still,
In the knight’s eroding faith.

Oh darkness is growing!

Such a bitter darkness,
Such a familiar darkness,
Such a cold cold darkness.

And she shivers by her fireless hearth.
And her gaze searches through the curtain less window.
And her soul whisper through the timeless distance.

Oh love, my love.
Oh my own, my own.
Oh my knight, my knight.

Are you in trouble?
Are you wounded?
Are you fading?

My brave shivering robin
My glowing fading star
My gentle strong knight.

Have you lost your way?
Have you lost your aim?
Have you lost your fire?

Here,
take my hand.

Here,
take my prayer.

Here,
take my candle.

Her whispers are hoarse.
Her lips are parched.
Her eyes are drowning.

Drowning,
My Lord.

So far,
So helpless,
So blind,

How can she help her love?

Pray, pray my daughter,
chant the woods.

Pray, pray my mother,
sings the brook

Pray, pray my sister,
chirp the birds.

There is no other way.

Prayer
Patience
Praise.

And thus, she prays.

What does she asks?
What does she hopes?
What does she whispers?

You must know,
Don’t you?

It’s in the trickle of the rain,
It’s in the shiver of your wings,
It’s on the tip of your fingertips.

Hush,
Hush my favourite.

You must know,
Don’t you?

I am yours and I await your return.
You are His and He protects your steps.

You are mine, and your heart will return to mine.
I am His and He protects my heart.

19/10/20

Truth belongs to the patient
Truth belong to the resilient
Truth belong to the constant

Deeply buried under the earth
Deeply buried under the ice
Deeply buried under the ashes

Truth waits…

To that hunter that waited forever under the ice.
for justice

To that princess that waited forever under the sand
for love.

To those lovers that waited forever under the earth
for absolution.

Lost
Forgotten
Found.

Yet a mystery until the last day…

For what do we know of the time
when these valleys were embracing glaciers?

For what do we know of the time
when humanity was a speck in a never-ending tundra?

For what do we know of the time
when those now forgotten lands sung with triumph?

Pieces
Dust
Embers.

And so many theories held as truth
And so many history books held as truth
And so many mythical legends held as truth.

Until the turn of the tide.

A new storyteller
A new weaver
A new jester

creates an empire of gold and ashes.

Have you travelled through those roads?
Have you travelled through those passes?
Have you travelled through those bridges?

And felt…

Soft tendril
Distant flickers
Muted echoes

The past is forgotten
The past is fragmented
The past is ever returning.

Like the waxing and waning of the pearl
Like the rise and fall of the golden phoenix
Like the surge of light and death within a maiden.

Pulsating
Vibrant
Warm

Life.

What lives,
never die.

What dies,
always return.

What lives and dies,
tell the truth.

Did you see?
Did you hear?
Did you understand?

Patience,
Let your heart beat.

Patience,
Let your mind breathe.

Patience,
Let your soul beam.

Soar,
Glide,
Rise…

Do you see it now?

The season of the continents,
Ever shifting.

The season of the planets,
Ever transforming.

The season of the atoms,
Ever remembering.

Like a dance,

Twirl
Turn
and whirl.

Words are never erased,
from a paper.

Hovels are never raised
to the ground.

Hopes are never cast,
to the seas –

Without returning.

A chimera.
A ghoul,
A ghost…

A reminder.
A secret.
A spell.

Written within the bark of a tree.
Whispered in an ice core
Weaved in thick amber.

For those who see
For those who seek.
For those who feel…

The echoes of your last breath.
The reverberation of your precious life.
The melody of the Truth within you.

Centuries ago.
Millenniums ago.
Ages and ages ago.

And now buried in time.

Until the land rocks and slides.
Until the ice breaks and melts.
Under the seas recede and boil over.

Truth remains,
Until the end of the times.

15/06/20

Did you wake up at midnight?
Did you open your window tonight?
Did you look up to the night?


They would say,


Why bother?
Why care?
Why try?


It’s raining too much.
It’s too cold.
It’s too cloudy.


But you wouldn’t…


Because you dream.
Because you hope.
Because you believe. 


So you woke up.


Barefoot,
Barhead,
Barehanded,


You went to meet the night.


No moon glimmering.
No stars glinting.
No eyes glinting.


Only the darkness,
Only the silence,
Only Your Creator,


A breath in,
Heart beating,
A breath out,
Heart beating.
A breath in.


And you see it…


As if your eyes could pierce
The clouds


As if your eyes could travel beyond,
The atmosphere.


As if your eyes could see
The unseen.


There’s a star.


Behind the thick clouds,
Behind the ashen sky,
Behind the shivering twilight,


There’s a star


Beckoning you.
Calling you.
Lulling you..


Brave,
Steadfast,
Earnest. 


You’ve seen it before,
Haven’t you?


You’ve heard it before,
Haven’t you?


You’ve sang it before,
Haven’t you?


That hymn to Hope.
That praise to the Light
That prayer to God


With that same star.


Remember, that twinkle,
Do remember.


Remember, that whisper,
Do remember.


Remember that promise,
Do remember.


In that time before time.
In that space before space.
In that moment before moment.


When you faced Your Creator.


And you knew,
what you know now.


And you believed,
What you believe now.


And you saw,
What you see now…


In the glimmer of a lost star.



10/11/19

Sami Yusuf – A Dancing Heart
Music to accompany this poem
 Creature of the woods,
 Creature of the wilds,
 Creature of the winds…
 
 Never of this city.
 
 Blinding lights,
 Deafening voices,
 Intoxicating fumes. 
 
 I crawl back to my
 
 Hovel
 Cabin
 Tower.
 
 Nestled in the trees.
 
 Aspens.
 Oaks.
 Maples. 
 
 Why must I leave my peace?
 Why must I?
 
 You must,
 You shall,
 You will, my child.
 
 They call,
 They always call…
 
 Through the highways, 
 Through the valleys,
 Through the seas, 
 
 They wake me up at night.
 
 Child,
 You must come.
 
 Child,
 You must run.
 
 Child,
 You must return.
 
 And I look the other way.
 
 Shivering,
 Trembling,
 Twitching,
 
 There will be no rest,
 Until I answer
 
 This call
 This beseech  
 This summon. 
 
 Too young,
 Too soon,
 Too fragile.
 
 I cannot.
 
 But my heart never rests.
 
 And my face becomes finer.
 And my eyes become deeper.
 And my hair becomes lighter.
 
 Time cannot ever be hindered. 
 
 Am I standing still, am I moving?
 
 Dancing
 Twirling
 Balancing 
 
 Between two world.
 Between two direction.
 Between two paths.
 
 How high is the tightrope!
 How high is the horizon!
 How high is the summit!
 
 The river runs in the glen.
 The daisies grow in the hollow.
 The children play in the dale.
 
 But I belong far away from
 
 Their gushing.
 Their dancing.
 Their singing.
 
 I wish I could climb down to them.
 I wish I could run to them.
 I wish I could stay with them.
 
 Find smooth pebbles in the river.
 Make luscious flower crowns,
 Hold their small hands in mine.
 
 I look at them.
 I wave at them.
 I call to them.
 
 They never notice me.
 
 There’s an invisible veil between us.
 Theres’s an invisible net between us.
 There’s an invisible barrier between us.
 
 Like the one that separates
 
 Living from the dead,
 Light from the shadows.
 Freshwater from saltwater.
 
 Invisible.
 Subtle.
 Unshakable. 
 
 Yet,
 We must all flow.
 
 Yet,
 We must all fly.
 
 Yet,
 We must all feel….
 
 The call beneath our ribs.
 The call beneath our heart.
 The call beneath our fingertips. 
 
 Can you hear it too?
 Can you?
 
 Or am I a madwoman…
 
 Frenzied.
 Frantic.
 Free.
 
 Ever wandering.
 Ever solitary,
 Ever thirsty,
 
 Scattering behind me
 
 Petals of what could have been,
 Hums of what could perhaps be.
 Feathers of what could never be.
 
 Unless…
 
 And I look away from the vale,
 And I look to my own feet.
 And I look up to the sky.
 
 Unless…
 
 Do you ever hear echoes of prayers,
 Do you ever hear tatters of laments,
 Do you ever hear hopeful hymns,
 
 Up there in the lonely mountains?
 
 Voices of those 
 Who journey.
 
 Voices of those,
 Who leave.
 
 Voices of those,
 Who must return.
 
 To the Unknowable.
 To the Unseeable.
 To the Ungraspable.
 
 To the ever Familiar. 
 To the ever Compassionate. 
 To the ever Loving.
 
 And the voices…
 
 Of those who sing in your blood.
 Of those who whisper in your dreams.
 Of those who are heard in your own words. 
 
 To a distant land.
 To an ancient time.
 To another idiom.
 
 You can almost see it…
 
 The scorching desert.
 The freezing summits.
 The haunting ruins.
 
 Towers embroidered of
 
 Gold
 Turquoise
 And blue.
 
 You can feel them under your fingertips.
 You can feel them against your palms.
 You can feel them against your cheek.
 
 Like a scent that never leaves you…
 
 Musk
 Frankincense 
 And roses.
 
 And the chants,
 And the oud 
 And the sitar.
 
 Like a melody that lulls you
 
 In,
 Out,
 and In,
 
 Of a sleep carved with dreams.
 
 A maddening labyrinthe 
 
 Curls,
 Leaps
 and fire out.
 
 Burning,
 Like a memory.
 
 Burning,
 Like a desire.
 
 Burning,
 Like a thirst.
 
 Something you cannot have imagined.
 Something you cannot translate in words.
 Something you cannot explain with reason.
 
 So you lie awake.
 
 Wordlessly,
 Hopelessly,
 Mindlessly,
 
 Listening.
 
 Even in this peaceful forest,
 Even in this gentle country lane,
 Even in this blissful night,
 
 Every breeze that breathes,
 Every twig that creaks, 
 Every bird that leaps,
 
 Echo those voices….
 
 Calling you,
 Beseeching you,
 Summoning you,
 
 To the journey. 

07/11/19


 Deep rust dew,
 Light golden sunbeam,
 Soft pitter patter.
 
 Haven’t I told you before?

 I am not from this world.
 I am not for this world.
 I merely exist here.
 
 The bridge I left behind
 
 Fell apart as I stepped on it.
 Dissolved as I stepped on it.
 Blew away as I stepped on it.
 
 I leaped over the abyss
 I flew over the abyss 
 I rose over over the abyss.
 
 The bridge in front of me
 
 Is already wobbling.
 Is already fading.
 Is already whining.

 I wish you were strong enough to catch me
 I wish you were strong enough to hold me.
 I wish you were strong enough to follow me.
 
 Through the muddy path,
 Over the sharp ridges,
 Under the thick mossed earth.
 
 Leaning over that void
 Where you once stood.

 Leaning over that well,
 Where you once spoke.
 
 Leaning over that crevasse 
 Where you once beckoned me. 
 
 I scatter pearls and feathers,
 I scatter petals and ashes,
 I scatter smoke and tears.
 
 But I already know that it’s in vain.
 
 So I turn around,
 I turn left,
 and keep on turning left.
 
 Until I find a whiff of 
 
 Myrrh 
 Frankincense
 Roses.
 
 and I find the stairwell,
 and I find the base camp,
 and I find the holy cave.
 
 Where I can truly hear.
 Where I can truly speak. 
 Where I can truly connect.

 … And at last be understood. 
 
 Dear sparrow,
 
 So gentle,
 So constant,
 So chatty.
 
 I listen to you.
 You listen to me.
 Neither is understood.
 
 I see you plunge into the fountain 
 Flap around your wings.

 I see you plunge your beak,
 Drink your fill.
 
 How brave,
 How endearing,
 How beautiful.
 
 But I am no bird…
 
 What am I?
 
 I look deep into that chasm,
 I look deep into that smoke,
 I look deep into that well,
 
 And try to find an echo of me.
 
 An apple tree,
 An apple blossom,
 An apple seed.
 
 Nothing more.
 
 A nurturing creature,
 A loving heart,
 And a promise to keep.
 
 Find my shoots in spring,
 Find my flowers in summer,
 Find my fruits in autumn,
 Find my bare core in the winter.
 
 Ever glowing
 Ever growing,
 Ever giving.

 But never yours.
 
 I belong to the seasons,
 I belong to the sunshine,
 I belong to the rainfall.
 
 I belong to the thick and rich soil.
 I belong to the soft and warm sun.
 I belong to the vigorous and living sap.
 
 But foremost…
 
 From my ever growing roots,
 Through my solid core,
 To my ever growing fruits,
 
 I belong to
 
 The One who created me.
 The One who nourished me.
 The One who protected me.
 
 and to Whom I will return.
 
 Listen to the bee,
 Smell the winter jasmine,
 Hold the fallen acorns.
 
 It is not winter yet.
 and yet, it will return.
 
 How thin the veils between the worlds are.
 How soft the voices calling to each other are.
 How persistant the souls drawn to each other are.
 
 Kismet.
 
 Come, come closer…
 
 Perhaps these woods are not haunted.
 Perhaps that crone is not evil.
 Perhaps that path isn’t thorny.
 
 Come, come closer…
 
 Maybe  I am wrong.
 Maybe you are right.
 Maybe… 
 
 Come, come closer…
 
 Perchance, this cabin isn’t an illusion.
 Perchance, this roaring fire isn’t a dream.
 Perchance, this embrace isn’t a fantasy.
 
 Destiny?

 When the leaves fall, 
 One by one.
 
 When the squirrels gather nuts,
 One by one.
 
 When the birds leave,
 One by One.
 
 I cannot see clearly.
 The mists.
 
 I cannot think clearly, 
 The bogs.
 
 I cannot understand clearly,
 The sunsets.
 
 So short,
 So short is a day.
 
 So far,
 So far we must go.
 
 Will you follow me?
 
 

03/09/19

They look at me.

Their eyes following me.
Their eyes assessing me,
Their eyes searching mine.

But my gaze is turned towards

The sliver of a moon
The glimmer of a star
The haze of a galaxy

Barely perceptible
Barely fathomable
Barely noticeable.

Beyond;
Far off;
Far beyond.

To you.
To You.

To another world.

I am not here.
They think they see me.

I am not here.
You don’t even think about me.

I am not here.
But He cradles me.

Luminous
Intangible
Breathless

I disappear.

Just like you.
Leaving them to wonder.

Who was she?
What was she?
Well, who cares?

I’m late for work.