July 2020

There was an earthquake
There was an eruption
There was an upheaval.

Oh no it wasn’t so violent.

More like an enrapture
More like an enchantment
More lire an entrapment

But I cannot breathe.
But I cannot think.
But I cannot write.

Too much,
Too deep,
Too soft,

My heart flutters.

Didn’t I ask for this?
Didn’t I pray for this?
Didn’t I dare for this?

A new spark…

Something so deep,
Something so rich,
Something so precious,

Like a sunbeam,
Like a bedewed rose,
Like a wing.

A wing

that flutters, like my heart.
that travels, like my breath,
that protects, like my prayers.

I can’t escape,
I can’t imagine,
I can’t write,

My tale has become reality.
My reality has become a tale.

Knight and Princess,
King and Queen
The boy and the fairy,

So many stories I

read
dreamt
wrote

about you.

And here you are….

Will you stay?
Will you go?
Will you fly?

Only God knows.

Sleepless nights,
Sleepy afternoon,
Sweet longings.

How can I ever write about you?

My sparrow,
My oak tree,
My whispered fervent prayer…

28/06/20

My sparrow,
My wing,
My love


You find me hesitant.
You find me shy.
You find me gentle.


But you don’t know about the wind.


It blew through my curtains,
It tore into my ears
It burned my heart.


He’s gone now.


Gone,
Disappeared,
Vanished.  


He didn’t ask
He didn’t want
He didn’t care


But I gave,
And I gave,
And I gave.


He left,
but his memory wouldn’t leave.


He left,
but his words wouldn’t leave.


He left,
but his ghost wouldn’t leave.


Until you came along.


Spring in autumn,
Summer in winter.


Joy in my tears,
Hope in my pleas.


Will you leave too?


Once the roses have crumpled,
Once the birds have flown,
Once the leaves have scattered.


Will you leave too?


I’ve loved before but never like this,


As we laugh, we are both children,
As we cry we are both a wreckage,
As we long we are both free souls. 


Yet,


I am not yours,
You are not mine,
We are neither’s…


Yet.