10/11/19

Sami Yusuf – A Dancing Heart
Music to accompany this poem
 Creature of the woods,
 Creature of the wilds,
 Creature of the winds…
 
 Never of this city.
 
 Blinding lights,
 Deafening voices,
 Intoxicating fumes. 
 
 I crawl back to my
 
 Hovel
 Cabin
 Tower.
 
 Nestled in the trees.
 
 Aspens.
 Oaks.
 Maples. 
 
 Why must I leave my peace?
 Why must I?
 
 You must,
 You shall,
 You will, my child.
 
 They call,
 They always call…
 
 Through the highways, 
 Through the valleys,
 Through the seas, 
 
 They wake me up at night.
 
 Child,
 You must come.
 
 Child,
 You must run.
 
 Child,
 You must return.
 
 And I look the other way.
 
 Shivering,
 Trembling,
 Twitching,
 
 There will be no rest,
 Until I answer
 
 This call
 This beseech  
 This summon. 
 
 Too young,
 Too soon,
 Too fragile.
 
 I cannot.
 
 But my heart never rests.
 
 And my face becomes finer.
 And my eyes become deeper.
 And my hair becomes lighter.
 
 Time cannot ever be hindered. 
 
 Am I standing still, am I moving?
 
 Dancing
 Twirling
 Balancing 
 
 Between two world.
 Between two direction.
 Between two paths.
 
 How high is the tightrope!
 How high is the horizon!
 How high is the summit!
 
 The river runs in the glen.
 The daisies grow in the hollow.
 The children play in the dale.
 
 But I belong far away from
 
 Their gushing.
 Their dancing.
 Their singing.
 
 I wish I could climb down to them.
 I wish I could run to them.
 I wish I could stay with them.
 
 Find smooth pebbles in the river.
 Make luscious flower crowns,
 Hold their small hands in mine.
 
 I look at them.
 I wave at them.
 I call to them.
 
 They never notice me.
 
 There’s an invisible veil between us.
 Theres’s an invisible net between us.
 There’s an invisible barrier between us.
 
 Like the one that separates
 
 Living from the dead,
 Light from the shadows.
 Freshwater from saltwater.
 
 Invisible.
 Subtle.
 Unshakable. 
 
 Yet,
 We must all flow.
 
 Yet,
 We must all fly.
 
 Yet,
 We must all feel….
 
 The call beneath our ribs.
 The call beneath our heart.
 The call beneath our fingertips. 
 
 Can you hear it too?
 Can you?
 
 Or am I a madwoman…
 
 Frenzied.
 Frantic.
 Free.
 
 Ever wandering.
 Ever solitary,
 Ever thirsty,
 
 Scattering behind me
 
 Petals of what could have been,
 Hums of what could perhaps be.
 Feathers of what could never be.
 
 Unless…
 
 And I look away from the vale,
 And I look to my own feet.
 And I look up to the sky.
 
 Unless…
 
 Do you ever hear echoes of prayers,
 Do you ever hear tatters of laments,
 Do you ever hear hopeful hymns,
 
 Up there in the lonely mountains?
 
 Voices of those 
 Who journey.
 
 Voices of those,
 Who leave.
 
 Voices of those,
 Who must return.
 
 To the Unknowable.
 To the Unseeable.
 To the Ungraspable.
 
 To the ever Familiar. 
 To the ever Compassionate. 
 To the ever Loving.
 
 And the voices…
 
 Of those who sing in your blood.
 Of those who whisper in your dreams.
 Of those who are heard in your own words. 
 
 To a distant land.
 To an ancient time.
 To another idiom.
 
 You can almost see it…
 
 The scorching desert.
 The freezing summits.
 The haunting ruins.
 
 Towers embroidered of
 
 Gold
 Turquoise
 And blue.
 
 You can feel them under your fingertips.
 You can feel them against your palms.
 You can feel them against your cheek.
 
 Like a scent that never leaves you…
 
 Musk
 Frankincense 
 And roses.
 
 And the chants,
 And the oud 
 And the sitar.
 
 Like a melody that lulls you
 
 In,
 Out,
 and In,
 
 Of a sleep carved with dreams.
 
 A maddening labyrinthe 
 
 Curls,
 Leaps
 and fire out.
 
 Burning,
 Like a memory.
 
 Burning,
 Like a desire.
 
 Burning,
 Like a thirst.
 
 Something you cannot have imagined.
 Something you cannot translate in words.
 Something you cannot explain with reason.
 
 So you lie awake.
 
 Wordlessly,
 Hopelessly,
 Mindlessly,
 
 Listening.
 
 Even in this peaceful forest,
 Even in this gentle country lane,
 Even in this blissful night,
 
 Every breeze that breathes,
 Every twig that creaks, 
 Every bird that leaps,
 
 Echo those voices….
 
 Calling you,
 Beseeching you,
 Summoning you,
 
 To the journey. 

29/10/19

My hearth is a campfire.
 
 Never here,
 Never there,
 Always returning.
 
 My love is in absence.
 
 Never here,
 Never there,
 Always returning. 
 
 My home is an embrace,
 
 Never here,
 Never there,
 Always returning.
 
 Time always trickles,
 Friends always trickle,
 Dreams always trickle.
 
 Droplets into
 Rivulets into
 Streams into
 
 A sea of feelings,
 An ocean of memories 
 A universe of faces.
 
 I belong to the ever changing dunes.
 I belong to the ever changing slopes.
 I belong to the ever changing shores.
 
 Your footsteps fading into the sands.
 Your silhouette fading into the snow.
 Your shoulders drowning in the water.
 
 Here yesterday,
 Gone today.
 
 And tomorrow?
 And next week?
 And every year?
 
 Will you return?
 
 With one spark,
 With one glance,
 With one word,

 Will you return? 
 
 Or will I build palaces 
 With words and paints?

 Or will I weave stories
 With dreams and words?
 
 Or will carve songs 
 With anguish and longing.?
 
 Carve it so deeply
 
 In wood,
 In marble,
 In the ground.

 If only I could reach the night sky.
 If only I could reach the milky way
 If only I could reach the universe.

 I would leave a trail of
 
 Petals
 Feathers
 And buds.
 
 For you to find with your gaze.
 For you to follow with your heart.
 For you to grasp with your soul.
 
 To light your way back home.
 
 Under a shower of golden leaves,
 Under a trail of sweet raindrops,
 Under a haze of amber glow,

 Will you return? 

28/10/19

There’s no point in living in that palace full of roses and birds
There’s no point in living in that far off land between here and there.
There’s no point in living in dreams that keep on slipping through my fingers.

 This is what I keep on writing.
 
 Yet in the velvety rain,
 Yet in the cottony mist,
 Yet in the embroidered forest,

 I lose my way.
 
 Waves, waves.
 
 Wind in my hair.
 Wind, wind,
 
 Waves at my feet.

 Waves,
 Layers,
 Eons.

 Does time still exist?
 
 If I were contained
 
 Within brick walls
 Within ciment cities
 Within uranium bars,

 I could forget this dream.
 
 My eyes on the prize,
 My hands never idle.
 My mind never my own.

 Belonging
 
 Mind & body,
 Hands and feet,
 Heart & soul,

 To what can only be seen.
 To what can only be held.
 To what can only be contained.
 
 But I am free.
 
 One of those birds that can never stay,
 But always comes back. 
 
 Dew on my skin,
 Salt on my lips,
 Glimmer in my eyes.
 
 I can see beyond
 
 Their walls 
 Their cages
 Their bars.

 Can’t you?
 No you cannot.
 
 You cannot see the palace of the birds.
 You canot see the primordial promise.
 You cannot see the birth of our love.

 You were there,
 But you are gone now.
 
 Oh but I saw it… 
 
 Feathers,
 Glimmer,
 and softness

 Your soul.

 I noticed you.
 I recognized you.
 I beckoned you.
 
 And you ran. 
 
 Leaving me to my
 
 Palace of roses and birds 
 Cabin by the river and woods,
 Dream of the past and the future.
 
 I tend my fire.
 I weave my life.
 I light my night.
 
 And you keep on running. 

27/10/19

 No I don’t think about you.
 

 These afternoons feel like summer. 
 These nights feel like winter.
 Scalding yet freezing. 
 

 No I don’t think about you.
 

 I point to no one in particular : the mushrooms and their church hats.
 I point to my own self : the primrose with their may queen dresses.
 Spring in Autumn, Autumn in Spring.
 

 Nothing is black or white.
 Nothing is stone and water.
 Nothing is dry and clear.
 

 Lovers sitting by the road.
 

 A man brushing the tendrils from his darling’s face.
 A young woman brushing her fingers against his arm. 
 

 Lovers sitting side by side. 
 

 No I don’t think about you.
 

 I look at his face and his gaze.
 I look at her face and her smile. 
 I look into myself and wonder…
 

 How does it all work?
 

 How to love?
 How to be loved?
 

 How doest it all work?
 

 I smile at them as I walk by,
 I am not here.
 Only they are here.
 

 The power of love,
 

 How soft!
 How strong!
 How blissful!
 

 No, I don’t think about you.
 

 I leave the lovers behind,
 I leave the leavers behind.
 I leave love behind.
 

 And by the fields, 
 

 He comes straight for me.
 He asks for me pleadingly. 
 He doesn’t let me leave.
 

 Soft,
 Fluffy,
 Wet.
 

 Black and white,
 Tail raised high,
 Face nestled against my boot. 
 

 I melt,
 As he melts.
 

 What is love?
 

 An innocent flutter.
 A gentle breeze.
 And sunshine.
 

 No I don’t think about you.
 

 The cat is left behind.
 The dogs chasing it away. 
 The dog is left behind.
 

 Up ahead,
 Down the street, 
 Far across 
 

 Lives a company of birds.
 

 They know my name,
 They know my step,
 They know about the road I take.
 

 The follow me,
 

 Asking about love.
 Asking about you. 
 Asking about my heart.
 

 Soon they will leave.
 Where to?
 

 Through the desert and the sea.
 Through the mountains and the forest.
 Through the curtain of loss and forgetfulness.
 

 Soon they will leave.
 To find you.
 

 No, I don’t think about you.
 

 The blue blue sky is empty.
 The dark dark earth is upturned.
 The grey grey road is beckoning me.
 

 Go, go on.
 Come, come on.
 Leave, leave on.
 

 Soon I will leave.
 Where to?
 

 Through fields and woods,
 Through valleys and gorges.
 Through hills and dusty cities.
 

 Soon I will leave.
 To find myself.
 

 No, I don’t think about you.
 

 Why would I?
 

 When lovers mock you.
 When cats compete with you.
 When birds can find you.
 

 No, I don’t think about you.
 

 You are in the falling leaves.
 You are in the drooping roses.
 You are in the forgotten moss.
 

 You never leave.
 You never return.
 You never speak.
 

 That man by the curb.
 That face by the door.
 That hand by my own.
 

 No I don’t think about you.
 

 But you keep on drifting back to 
 

 The streets I cross.
 The cafés I haunt.
 The life I never lived.
 

 No I don’t think about you.
 

 Autumn is yours.
 The season of a first glance.
 The season of a last glance. 
 

 But every season has its season.
 

 Come and gone,
 Like a dream.
 

 Come and gone, 
 Like a celebration. 
 

 Come and gone,
 Like a wisp of wind.
 

 No I don’t think about you.
 
 

24/10/19

 The gently swaying foliage,
 The golden and yellowing leaves whispering,
 The great tit and the robin chirping farewell.
 
 How delightful!
 
 My feet grow heavier,
 Roots grow out of my toes,
 Blossom grow in my hair.
 
 A smile,
 A tear,
 And a first step 
 
 Into the next turn
 Into the next path
 Into the next trail.
 
 The road is still long.
 
 I cannot see behind.
 I cannot see forward.
 I can only see here and now.
 
 Your pretty words,
 
 Tangled in soft fluff,
 Laced with earnest sincerity,
 Embroidered on delicate silk,
 
 Your words were hollow.
 
 I knew.
 I waited.
 I knew.
 
 The sun rose and sank behind the hill.
 The moon grew and dwindled above the hill.
 The seasons spread their mantles over the hill.
 
 Afte a last smile,
 
 I walked on.
 I journeyed on.
 I moved on.
 
 Do I hear a flutter in the bough behind me?
 Do I hear a voice calling my name beyond the tree line?
 Do I hear a man wondering why they always leave?
 
 No,
 Just a bluebird
 Just a wisp of wind. 
 Just a last farewell. 
 
 Every clearing bestows a new story.
 Every river bend bestows a new poem.
 Every autumn bestows a new lament.
 
 Oh do not fret,
 
 Sadness makes you grow.
 Melancholy gives you a melody.
 Loss offers you more space.
 
 Thunder,
 Wild showers,
 The made race of the wind…
 
 And the storm is over.
 
 Golden hues,
 Honeyed softness,
 Amber glow.
 
 A last dance. 
 
 The storm is over,
 and I go on.
 
 No shade,
 No rain,
 No dew.
 
 The summer never ends.
 
 The urchin jumps into the sea.
 The mermaid swims deep into the sea. 
 The nymph walked out of the sea.
 
 Autumn will never betray us.
 
 Maybe I was wrong,
 Maybe I was right.
 Maybe I was just scared.
 
 All I know is that
 
 The ground is freezing beneath my boots.
 Garlic cloves are growing beneath the dirt.
 Nights are growing so cold and melodious.
 
 But the great tit and his family have left. 
 But the sparrows are too shy to sing at night.
 But the owls are too far deep in the woods to be heard. 
 
 Who is singing?
 The wind, always the wind.
 
 Who is sighing?
 The wind, always the wind.
 
 Who is regretting?
 The wind, always the wind.
 
 Or is it only me?
 
 I cannot breathe deeply.
 I cannot think deeply.
 I cannot commit deeply.
 
 There’s a restlessness 
 
 Keeping me up at night.
 Waking me up at dawn.
 
 There’s a call…
 
 Beating in my heart,
 Twirling in my veins,
 Lurching in my lungs.
 
 Where to?
 When?
 How?
 
 Why wouldn’t you tell me?
 
 The path is
 
 Whirling,
 Twisting
 Turning
 
 Into a spiderweb.
 Into a fortified city
 Into a spiral galaxy 
 
 No straight path or me.
 No simple story for me.
 No hurdle free answer.
 
 Watch me :
 
 Shrug it off.
 Smile it off.
 Dance it off. 
 
 On and on,
 Run & stumble.
 
 On and on,
 Tired & strong.
 
 On and on,
 Lost & driven.
 
 The road is still long.
 
 I will linger today.
 I will stop today.
 I will take it in today.
 
 Bask in the afternoon glow.
 Float in the divinest scent.
 Sing in the a misty landscape. 
 
 Until it’s time to go.
 On and on.

13/10/19

 Your words are boxes.
 Your questions are bars.
 Your attention is a border.
 

 Enclosing me.
 Entrapping me.
 Chocking me.
 

 In.
 and out.
 In.
 and out…
 

 And I can breathe again.
 

 Did you follow the trail of petals leading into the woods?
 Did you follow the feather as it fell from the branches?
 Did you follow the brook cascading and shimmering away?
 

 Your bare feet against the cold mud.
 Your open palms against the silken foliage.
 Your open lips against the curtain of rain?
 

 Dewdrops gliding through,
 Droplets dripping through,
 Teardrops slipping through,
 

 Your outstretched fingers.
 

 Yours?
 Mine?
 Neither. 
 

 You’re trying too hard.
 You’re not trying hard enough.
 

 You are looking for warm golden marble that melts.
 You are looking for a thick but easily opened door.
 You are looking for something that only exists in your mind.
 

 I see you walk past me.
 

 You never noticed the softly whispering aspen tree.
 You never noticed the fluttering and chirping robin.
 You never noticed the sunbeam piercing into your eyes.
 

 You never noticed me seeking something in you.
 

 That wasn’t in you.
 That wasn’t for you.
 That was already in me.
 

 Did you decipher the footsteps in the mud?
 Did you translate the birdsong in the morn?
 Did you notice the pattern of the stars?
 

 You didn’t.
 

 Thus the lush isle remain forever out of reach in the mists.
 Thus the cabin with the glowing hearth remains deep in the woods. 
 Thus the enticing kisses remain forever beyond your reach in the clouds.
 

 Huffing 
 Humming
 Puffing;
 

 If only.
 

 Didn’t you read the legends about the never ending quest?
 Didn’t you read the poems about the wandering knights?
 Didn’t you hear the songs about the crownless kings?
 

 They are but stories to you.
 

 They are my bones.
 My gums and jaws.
 And all that blood.
 

 You mutter.
 You sputter.
 You stutter. 
 

 What a waste.
 

 I spread my wings,
 I turn my face to the moon,
 and I lung forward.
 

 Never looking back.
 

 I need peace,
 this world is to loud.
 

 Your boots crunch the leaves into dust.
 Your harsh sighs scare the sparrows away.
 Your reverberating platitude make the stars fade.
 

 Tiptoes, 
 Whispers,
 Truth.
 

 This is what I seek.
 

 How can I ever be yours?
 

 When I belong to myself.
 When I belong to God.
 When I still belong to the wind….
 

 That blows,
 Carries me
 Throws me away.
 

 Like a discarded page.
 Like a decaying leaf.
 Like a soft feather.
 

 Forever untamable. 
 Forever unavailable. 
 Forever unreachable.
 

 Eternally alone. 

11/10/19 23:50

Sweet little mirage,
 

 I wish I could hold you.
 I wish I could love you.
 I wish I could hear you.
 

 I know you think you want to love me.
 

 All sweet
 All strong.
 All dewy.
 

 You believe in this,
 But I don’t.
 

 Sweet little mirage.
 

 I should shoo you away.
 I should send you away.
 I should push you away.
 

 But I’m so cold.
 But I’m so tired.
 But I’m so lonely.
 

 I just want to dance with you.
 I just want to talk with you.
 I just want to be held by you.
 

 And melt in your embrace.
 

 Until blood flows again in my veins.
 Until  oxygen course through my body again.
 Until my cells are given a new life once more.
 

 And I can go back to the way.
 

 The winding way.
 The maddening way.
 The only way.
 

 Which is not yours.
 

 Sweet little mirage,
 Look around you,
 

 Sun scorched sand,
 Wind swept dunes,
 Scorpions riddled darkness. 
 

 This isn’t a place for you.
 This isn’t a haven for me.
 This isn’t a life for us.
 

 There cannot be an us. 
 

 I know your throat is parched with bitterness.
 I know your eyes are dried with sadness.
 I know your lips are blistered by loneliness.
 

 But what you see is
 

 An enchantress in the woods.
 A mermaid in the deep sea.
 A black hole in the heart of a galaxy. 
 

 Go back,
 Go back 
 Before it’s too late. 
 

 Don’t follow me,
 

 As I run from you.
 As I fly from you.
 As I escape from you.
 

 Oh how I wish you could hold me!
 Oh how I wish you could tell me you love me!
 Oh how I wish you could be my safe haven!
 

 But my sweet mirage,
 

 I will hurt you.
 I will break you.
 I will leave you.
 

 I already belong to someone else…
 

 So before you become a castle of sand. 
 So before you become a refreshing oasis.
 So before you become a deep well.
 

 All for me.
 

 Let me go.
 

 Forego
 Forgive
 Forget.
 

 For me…. 

11/10/19

I was born in the woods,
 

 Berry stained lips,
 Twigs adorned hair,
 Rain bedewed cheeks.
 

 I took my first step in the mountains,
 

 Rock bruised knees.
 Pine fragrant skin.
 Torrent frozen feet.
 

 And down the valley,
 Into the city.
 To reality,
 

 I lost my way.
 
 Trying to hear the birdsong.
 Trying to understand the story of the moon.
 Trying to find my way back to the wild.
 

 And then, the wind blew hard…
 

 I lost my footing.
 I lost my direction.
 I lost my name.
 

 I was his.
 But he was never mine.
 

 Under the full moon,
 In the clearing of a forest,
 By a roaring campfire,
 

 I found a sisterhood of women
 I found a sisterhood of the untamed
 I found a sisterhood of wolves. 
 

 Their words were like balms.
 Their heart songs were like a spark.
 Their wisdom was like a revelation.
 

 A reminder.
 A recalling.
 A return….
 

 To my own wild self.
 

 I cried and dried their tears.
 I laughed and heard them laugh. 
 I roared and they roared with me.
 

 The moon waxed and waned.
 The leaves grew and fell.
 The great tit sang and left.
 

 It was time to leave.
 

 I kept on walking until their voices were like whispers.
 I kept on walking until their faces were like dreams.
 I kept on walking until their words were branded in my soul.
 

 In the silence,
 I could hear myself again.
 

 In the darkness,
 I could see myself again.
 

 In the stillness,
 I could move myself again.
 

 Dance
 Walk 
 And swim. 
 

 I found the ocean. 
 

 The waves beckoning me.
 The blue color soothing me.
 The sand pulling me in. 
 

 And I swam. 
 

 My hair like the nets of a mermaid.
 My skin finally cleared of all those wounds. 
 My limbs stretching and growing.
 

 When I came out of the water,
 

 Dark long tangled hair like seaweed,
 Covered in blue from ankles to wrist, 
 Pushed forward by the waves,
 

 I was reborn.
 

 Short golden halo,
 Red lips,
 Sparkly finger.
 

 I went on.
 

 Aimlessly.
 Hopelessly,
 Tiredelessly. 
   
 A bird dropped a feather in my hair,
 A constellation drew a figure in the sky.
 A message in a bottle told me a story,
 

 Oh what a wonderful story. 
 

 A tale that could feed many lonely nights.
 A tale that could delight a tired heart.
 A tale that could show a new path.
 

 Full of dreams,
 Full of birds,
 and full of hopes,
 

 I found her again….
 

 That girl you never knew.
 That girl I never forgot.
 That girl I always longed for.
 

 Rosy cheeked,
 Mud splattered feet,
 Sparkly deep eyes.
 

 Oh she is back!
 

 Look at how she dances.
 Look at how she sings.
 Look at what she writes.
 

 You may never return.
 There may never be another.
 But I have her, but I have me.
 

 And so many songs in he death of night.
 And so many stories at every turning.
 And so many dreams in every sunset.
 

 Did you think you were the only dream I had?
 

 Oh you didn’t,
 You never thought about me… Did you?
 

 But I believed…
 

 You were the path I had to thread.
 You were a dream come true. 
 You were a story beyond stories.
 

 And now I just shrug.
 And now I just look up.
 And now I just spin.
 

 Around and around.
 

 There’s hope in my step.
 There are sparks in my thoughts.
 There are stories in my fingertips.
 

 I write and write.
 

 From the woods,
 To the mountains,
 To the sea….
 

 — and back to the woods. 
 

 Like the dance of the moon,
 Like the refrain of the seasons,
 Like the story of a drop of water. 
 

 Around and around.
 

 Like a dancer,
 Like a planet,
 Like a galaxy.
 

 All for a feather on my path.
 

 

10/10/19

I dreamt of the ocean again.
 

 The waves were soft and docile,
 The water was warm and inviting,
 The wind was dewy and gentle. 
 

 I was a girl once more.
 

 Dancing on the sand,
 With my cousins.
 

 Jumping in the water,
With my clothes on.
 

 Swimming in the ocean,
 With the frothy waves 
 

 How free I was.
 How easily I forgot.
 

 How they crash,
 Hush, hush.
 

 How I remain,
 How you left.
 

 The ocean is so far away now.
 

 But I can stil hear the waves rolling and crashing.
 But I can still feel the ocean breeze on my hair and face. 
 But I can still taste the tears on my lips of that never-ending dance.
 

 Perhaps,
 It’s just the wind.
 

 Perhaps,
 It’s just a memory.
 

 Perhaps,
 It’s just a dream.
 

 Hush,
 Watch….
 

 How they come,
 And how they leave.
 

 How they kiss,
And how they embrace.
 

 How they run to you,
 And run from you.
 

 Close your eyes
 And listen.
 

 Here now,
 Gone now.
 

 The seagull,
 The albatross,
 And the heron.
 

 Open your eyes.
 And it’s too late.
 

 I already left.
 I already melted
 I already lost my way. 
 

 And the waves, 
 The waves…
 

 Like echoes of a forgotten song.
 Like pebbles of a forgotten trip.
 Like hopes of a forgotten dream.
 

 Waves upon waves,
 Billow upon billow,
 Tsunami upon tsunami.
 

 Never wondering,
 About the aftermath,
 About the consequences. 
 

 And the destruction. 
 

 Ever coming,
 And leaving,
 And returning.
 

 Echoing,
 Forever,
 Echoing….
 

 That dream.  

29/09/19 15:00

 It was sweet,
 It was soft,
 It was subtle,
 

 Like scattered petals,
 Like forgotten feathers,
 Like dewy leaves,
 

 Under my bare feet.
 Under my bold fingers. 
 Under my burnt lips.
 

 So soothing
 So welcoming
 So mesmerizing 
 

 Like the zephyr in the chimes 
 Like the sunset through the foliage
 Like the trickle before the rivulet.
 

 Flow,
 glow
 and whirl.
 

 It’s almost like a bedtime story.
 It’s almost like a lullaby.
 It’s almost like a farewell….
 

 Unspoken.
 Unbidden.
 Unsent. 
 

 Before you leave,
 

 Hold me.
 Lull me.
 Breathe me.
 

 Before you leave.
 

 Let me take your hand.
 Hold your neck.
 And whirl.
 

 Hush,
 Hold my waist,
 And whirl.
 

 No promises.
 No words.
 No sighs.
 

 Just that soundless music.
 

 Your heart
 My heart 
 And all that could have been. 
 

 Thank you.
 

 For the new melody,
 For the new stories
 For the new moon.
 

 A fresh gust of wind.
 A fresh peal of laughter. 
 And a new step in my dance. 
 

 No tears,
 No tearing,
 No pleading.
 

 No touching,
 No speaking,
 No hoping.
 

 I told you love,
 We don’t belong to each other.
 

 The mountains keep on rising between us.
 The sea keeps on roaring between us.
 The desert keeps on stretching between us.
 

 And the wind,
 Pulls me off that summit.
 

 And the wind,
 Pulls me out of those waves.
 

 And the wind,
 Pulls me out of this mirage.
 

 And back to my stone tower.
 And back to my winding stairs.
 And back to my library of memories.
 

 Where I belong.